At The Junction Of Light

At the junction of light

I met my beloved

There we held hands

And embraced

His eyes sparkled of light

And His skin was gold

I held His right hand

And gazed at the golden skin

In awe and wonder

 

He smelt of honey

Love, joy, peace

And fruitfulness

I picked a purple fruit

From His chest

And ate

Voraciously

 

He watched as I ate

Smiling tenderly

With eyes full

Of love and mercy

 

My belly was filled

With joy from the holy fruit

As I burst and spoke in

The heavenly language

I could feel the river

Flowing from my innermost being

And heard myself call Him

Sweet, holy and tender names

My heart was filled with love

For my golden prince.

 

Then He laughed in delight as He said,

“Today,

You have tasted my joy

Joy will be your companion

And best friend

You will never again know sorrow

Like you knew it

In the past

Rejoice in me

My beloved

Because

My name is joy.”

Then a golden cloud covered Him

And He disappeared.

 

May grace, peace

Mercy, love and joy

Be ours in full measure.

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The Heavenly Ballroom

I can remember

That night in London so well.

 

 

I had spent several hours

Thanking the Lord

For His precious blood

That set me free.

 

This thanksgiving was

In obedience to the revelations

He had given me

Several times

About the importance of gratitude

And thanksgiving and celebrating Him

For His great salvation

And redemption

Given to us

Through His precious blood.

 

As I made melody in my heart

To Him,

And thanked Him

With love and worship,

I fell into a trance.

 

I was suddenly

In a glorious and spacious ballroom

In heaven.

 

There were many of us

All dressed in extraordinarily beautiful

White garments,

Studded with indescribable

Gemstones.

 

My gown was so breathtaking

In beauty that I still marvel

At the delightful recall.

 

We sat and waited

For that one special one

In eager anticipation

Of dancing with Him.

 

Suddenly,

He appeared in that glorious

Ballroom,

Breathtaking and powerful

In appearance and beauty.

Then I woke up

From my trance,

Wishing

That the trance had lasted

A bit longer.

 

He appeared because

I obeyed Him,

And rejoiced in His salvation

With thanksgiving and love.

 

As a result,

The word of God

Penetrated deep into me

With His glorious presence

And cleaned my garments

Washing me

White as snow

Leading to intimacy and fellowship.

 

The word of God

Is glorious and powerful.

It is the word of God – the good news of salvation

That saves our souls,

As we accept it,

And cling to it

In thanksgiving, praise and worship.

 

May we constantly glorify

The word of God – the good news

Of our redemption and salvation

Amen.

 

Hallelujah Jesus

Conquered death, sin, hell and the grave.

He has given us victory

Praise God!

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Heaven’s Gate

A gentle pat on my left leg

And I wake up

To behold a mighty Angel

In my room.

He smiled,

And I smiled back.

 

 

Immediately I smiled back

I found myself at

Heavens gate

As I walk though the city,

I loose every memory of pain,

Heartbreak and disappointment.

 

The Lord Himself walks

Towards me,

In a golden garment,

Studded with gemstones,

Shining brighter than the sun.

Resplendent, radiant and overwhelming

In power and beauty,

He kisses my right cheek,

And says,

‘I love you.’

And I think to myself,

‘How wonderful the Lord is,

That He expresses love very easily

Without shyness or childishness.

 

His comfort in love

And words of love

Made Him more attractive

And alluring

As I gaze at Him – My big Daddy,

With beautiful brown, tear filled eyes.

 

Then I remember my own husband

Who can never say

‘I love you’

But would show me in a million

Ways how much he loves me.

I always wanted to hear

Those precious healing words

But my husband denied me that pleasure

Relief and comfort

Of the mind.

 

Then I recall that the Holy Spirit

Said to me in the past,

‘A blessed woman is a woman

Who hears I love you everyday.’

He also taught me the importance

Of expressing love

As He constantly says to me,

‘Express your love for me.’

 

Here I am,

Hand in hand

With my King

Walking on golden streets

Surrounded by His glory

Hearing the one word

I was always denied.

 

Tears drop down my eyes

As the Lord opens up His

Healing arms

And I rush in

Overwhelmed by a million

Positive emotions and love, joy, peace, consolation and comfort.

 

I hugged Him never to let go

Muttering ceaselessly into His chest

Intoxicated by His fragrance,

Which smelt like nothing on earth.

 

‘I love you Lord, I love you Lord,

More than everyone,

And anything

On earth, I will show you my love

By constant obedience and service.

Your will is my will, your pleasure is my pleasure.’

 

I kept saying this, like a glorious litany rushing

Like golden cascades of love

Out of my quivering lips.

This pleased the Lord greatly.

 

He holds my face in His hands

Wipes away my tears

Gazing deeply into my adoring tender eyes,

‘I love you my child,

You are a princess,

Don’t ever forget that.’

 

Then I find myself

Back in my room

Wishing He never let go.

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That One Dance

We were many

Dressed in royal garments

Studded with gemstones

Waiting for the bridegroom

 

We were all longing

To dance with Him

As we all searched

The great ballroom

In Heaven

For the great Master

 

Then He appeared

And we all fell at His feet

In adoration and worship

My face was facedown

And my mouth kissed the floor

And it seemed like my nose

Was stuck to the floor

 

Then I saw the golden sandals

Beside me

And realized He was

Standing beside me

 

I looked up

And He stretched out

His right hand to me

Smiling gently

With love

 

His blue eyes sparkled

And twinkled

And rays of light

Emanated from them

Enveloping me

 

I gave Him

My right hand and

He pulled me up

Into His arms

His gaze fixed firmly

On my face

 

I looked downwards

With great shyness

Because I felt swallowed up

By His mesmerising deep gaze

 

I hid my face on

His shoulder

And we danced

 

As we danced

He bent towards my face

And whispered into my ear,

“Those who wait upon me

And seek my face

Will dance with me

Eat with me

And experience my glory.

They will touch me

Taste me

Feel me

Eat me

And see my face,

As I come upon them.

To dance with me means

Intimate fellowship

And baptism of

My Holy Spirit and fire

It means drinking and tasting

My Spirit

And basking in my glory and fire

Tell my children that

I want to dance with them.”

 

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Gold In My Belly – Chapter 2

MEMORIES OF RACHEAL

I can remember that day so well

Very long ago

It was summer

And I had fallen asleep

On my garden sofa

In my back garden

The blaring sound

of siren woke me up

And I though to myself,

“Police! Police!”

As I jumped up from my sleep

Startled and dazed

Wondering if something bad

Was happening on my street

Then the sound

Gently receded and retreated

Slowly fading away

And there was sudden calm

The soft evening breeze

Caressed my cheek

And I felt more alive

Than ever

I stretched myself on the sofa

And immediately I put my head on the sofa

I fell into a trance

I looked and all I could see

Was a great sea

Within a hundred yards

From where I was

I saw a crowd of lovely ladies

The crowd was huge, so huge

Over a million

All waking on the sea

And emerging from the sea

With roses, tiara’s and crowns

“We must crown you.” They all echoed

Bowing as they said it.

“No I said, get away from me.”

The female leader of the group

Tall and perfect in beauty

Stepped into my garden and a regal looking man

Of authority accompanied her – he was obviously a prince.

“You are making a great mistake,

We won’t leave you alone

Until you yield.

We want you

Because you are a great asset

Your blood is gold and pure

And a delight to us

Come to us.”

She turned to the prince standing beside her.

“This is Del,

The prince of Nada Kingdom.” The prince was very

Striking and extremely handsome. The robe he had on dazzled with

Gems and unearthly beauty.

I starred at the prince in dismay

Wondering why they were disturbing my evening rest

I shook my head as I carefully examined him.

“Handsome but not my type.”

I muttered under my breath

“What?”

The prince asked, obviously insulted and not pleased

“Oh you heard me? Well, I was talking to myself.”

“You dare to defy me me?”

My laugh was shrill and out of this world.

“Why not? I shrugged as I got up from the sofa, stepped forward

And looked straight into his eyes, not scared or afraid

of his power. I looked into His eyes with scorn.

Shafts of fire were beginning to proceed out of His eyes.

“What a mess, I am not gonna waste my time with you,

“Disappear or fire will swallow you.”

The prince moved closer to me and a golden cloud appeared and encircled me.

Prince Del was breathtaking in beauty

He was powerful

However I despised him

He was nothing compared

The Prince of princes that was around me.

At the sight of the golden cloud,

Prince Del instantly transformed into a beast, screened in terror

and evaporated into the air as thick smelly green mist filled the air.

I opened my eyes and realized I was very hungry. I went into my house and the doorbell

was ringing. There was smoke everywhere and the fire alarm shrilled into my perplexed bones.

The Tumble

Climbing up an annoying hill

On my way

From the grocery store

At plumstead, Greenwich

With heavy loads on both hands

I became angry

Because my husband had lost his job

And the fury rolled in

Bit by bit

Piling up into a heap

On my weary, discouraged mind

My frozen, clammy hands were aching

And I was so tired

And sleepy from exhaustion

A tear slipped down to my yellow scarf

Wrapped around my neck

To protect me from the freezing cold

“Mummy what’s wrong,”

My head swung towards my

Four year old daughter

Lily

“Nothing princess,

Mummy is just tired.”

As I said the word tired

I lost my balance on

The slippery slope

And found myself rolling down the hill

And I heard a piecing cry

“Mummy!”

The heart wrenching cry broke my heart

And it caused me more pain

Than the physical pain

Tearing and searing at me

From various angles

Like a wicked destructive storm

That ravages without mercy

I tried to get up

But I was in pain

As a nurse,

I knew I had injured my ankle

And knee

A while later

As the ambulance drove

Me away

And I watched my princess crying

And sobbing

I realized that

I had been ungrateful

I had so many things to

Be grateful about

But I had ignored them

So many blessings

But I had chosen to be ungrateful

And I counted my loss

And Peter’s loss

My husband Peter is amazing and loving

My job very refreshing

And rewarding

My daughter, a delight

And an Angel

My health was perfect

But I had forgotten

And counted my loss

“Gratitude is a choice Lucy,”

I said to myself

‘Never forget that.”

I was in pain

But somehow

I found the courage

To sing praises to the Lord

And a great peace like never before

Flooded my soul

Even in the midst of trial

And pain.

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All I Know

When you left me for Cynthia

I said to my self

“I am finished!”

I cried

And I was sad

Then I said to myself,

‘Don’t be silly

Divorce is not the end of the world

You have a lot to thank God for.’

I wanted to forget Ashley

But I could not

Because

Memories are hard to abolish

And the memories

Just kept bubbling up

Into my consciousness

I knew I had to keep busy

And develop another passion

Then I picked up my Laptop

And began to write

I hit the keyboard really hard

And typed like I was expecting an award

Or a much cherished price

As I typed I would sometimes

Remember Ashley,

Wipe away the tears and continue

I never gave up

I was a recluse

For one year

Because I was determined

To be the best

That I could be

I made sure that I put in my best

After one year

The book was published

And it was a bestseller

Subsequently

The book was turned

Into a movie

Ashley saw me on TV

And called me

He wanted me back

And promised never to betray my love

Ever again

However I said no,

“No, Ashley

I don’t want you back

I love writing

I have a new passion.”

And hopefully one day

A new man

I don’t really care

All I know is that I am happy

And I am determined to be happy

And no one can take away my joy

One thing I know is this

I make decisions

Over my own life

And I am the only one

Who can give permission to others

To mess up my life

And I say no to betrayal and sadness

Taken

You were taken

By a vow

And a spirit

That I could not understand

Despite knowing

That we could never

Be together

I loved you

Like my own soul

I inhaled your spirit

Until obsession took over

When I realized the

Danger of obsession

I cut off

And went far away

To another land

Where I would

Never see you

However the scar

Had cut deeply

Into me

And all my dreams

Were about

Me by your graveside

Mourning the loss

Of your presence

The cords of obsession

Fought hard

To resist the resistance

I put up

As I realized that

I did not have the strength

To pull through

Because the more I fought

The more I fell apart

And became physically

Breathless

Because my heart

Refused to obey

My head and logic

I cried out to heaven

And I was saved

By the mercy of God

With one lesson

Etched deeply

On my mind

“Obsession is bad

For the soul,

Reject obsession

At its early stages

Before it sprouts

Horns and tails

And turns into

A destructive

Monster to the soul.”

My Own Happiness

As I climbed the Hill

At Rock-berry drive

I remembered Harry

My ex husband

So happy

So loved up

With His new family

I hissed

As I heard a loud scream

And I realized that

I had fallen

Because I did not see

The white stone

By the pathway

A tear slipped out if my tired eyes

As I struggled

To rise up

From the muddy path

I picked up

A gold colored

Dry leaf

And I made a silent vow

To myself

Never to remember

Happy Harry

And focus on myself

My life, my path and my way

In order to carve out

My own happiness

I Tried To Love You But…

 

Everyday

I tried to love you

But I couldn’t

You were to me

The wrong man

That I married

It was an arranged marriage

That made me loose the man

Of my dreams
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You loved me

You were the best

You lived for me

However,

I could never forget

That you were not

My choice

I believed our marriage

Was an accident

That should never have happened

 

 

One morning in September

You woke up

And said

“You know what? I release you.”

And that was final

I was free

But an ache began

To eat me up

As I realized that

I could not live without you

I could not forget the way

You loved me

 

And I became convinced that

No man will ever

Love me

The way you did

However it was too late

Your heart had

Turned away from me

 

 

Here I am

Sad and miserable

Missing the years that

We spent together

And drowning in memories

Of our intertwined past life

That just won’t go away

 

I was such a fool

To let go of

A love so beautiful

But it is simply

Too late

 

I now know that

I loved you

I had to miss you

To realize that

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