Broken Wings

You were a very beautiful bird

Free to fly and constantly flying.

Beautiful and graceful,

Gentle and tender.

 

You delighted in golden mountains

And blue rivers.

You drank from silver brooks

And Heaven’s springs

One day,

While you were asleep,

A snake sneaked into your room

And mercilessly broke your wings.

 

You woke up

Unaware of your calamity,

You flapped your silver wings

To fly,

And you couldn’t.

You looked at your side

And realized that your wings were

Broken.

You were overcome with grief

And wept bitterly.

You were inconsolable in your loss.

 

After a while,

You picked up courage

And struggled to fly again

But you couldn’t.

Confused and ashamed,

You ran into a grave

And hid yourself

To mourn your loss.

The pit became your home.

 

One hut afternoon

In summer,

You came out of your grave

To try again.

 

You looked left and right

To make sure you were alone.

You stood upon the earth,

and walked to an apple tree with shaky legs.

Under the apple tree,

You struggled to fly again.

 

As I watched you struggle and try to fly,

I was overcome by

My love and compassion

And I came down from my throne.

 

I carried you on my own wings, to the top

Of your favorite mountain.

And we talked for for months.

There I fed you with love and mercy

And I taught you

Great and powerful mysteries of love.

 

Most especially, I thought you how to

cling to my good news,

rejoice in my salvation and celebrate my redemption.

And you fell deeply in love

With me – Your teacher and redeemer.

 

When I saw that your love

Was very pure and acceptable,

I came upon you

And mended your broken wings and

Fixed it to perfection.

I crowned you with extraordinary grace.

 

Then I sat on my throne

And watched you fly.

You soared and soared,

Into the heavens and above the heavens.

You sang with the saints

And mingled with angels.

The inhabitants of Heaven

rejoiced with palm leaves and danced

For joy.

You were covered with diamond and gold

You became the most beautiful bird

My Cinderella.

 

I introduced you

To the highest echelons of society.

You wined and dined with princes

And lived your life in the rainbow

Of my afterglow – sparkling and shining.

 

I showed you off to all creation,

And I boasted with you

And delighted in you.

You are blessed Indeed,

O beloved princess of heaven!

 

How wonderful you are, O Lord

You have promised great things to

Your princes and princesses.

May we constantly

Trust you to mend our broken wings.

May we remain in constant fellowship with you until

We behold and experience your great glory.

 

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He Called Him Darling

 

Another event that took place

In the spirit.

 

In this vision, the Lord

Showed me a group of people

Traveling.

They were worn out,

Tired, weary and very dehydrated.

 

I was standing at a distance

Watching keenly.

The Lord went into the crowd

And singled out a man

Who looked Asian.

 

He is of course

Living on earth but on

A spiritual journey like

Everyone else.

 

The man was so weary

He was almost fainting.

 

The Lord said, “darling!”

held Him

In His arms, hugged Him

And pulled Him out of that group,

With so much love and compassion.

 

When the Lord called him darling,

my mouth and eyes flew

open in shock.

 

Then the Lord looked straight

At me and said,

‘Yes, he is my darling,’

Are you shocked that I called him darling?

He is my darling and I will deliver him.’

Then the vision came to an end.

 

No matter how shocking it is,

We are all darlings to Him and

Precious to Him.

We are His beloved and

He loves us that much.

 

He does not differentiate

Gender when he loves us

Or says darling.

We are all precious to Him.

 

What He wanted to impress

On my mind is that

Regardless of our gender

We are His darlings

And He loves us deeply

With tender, eternal, divine love.

Praise God!

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Don’t Despise Me

 

A long time ago

When I was still in a Church

That confesses Christ in lips

But delights in idolatry and false worship,

I had a vision.

 

 

Prior to the vision

I saw myself as one of the

Best lovers of God

Believing that my love for God

Was somehow almost unparalleled and unmatched

In its fervor and intensity.

 

I loved God quite alright

But the God I loved

Was my false idea of God,

And I did not know that.

 

I wallowed in deception

And delusion

Until I had this vision.

 

I was lying down

On my bed,

When I was suddenly transported

Into the Kingdom of God.

 

I was in a very large congregation

And the crowd was limitless.

 

A mighty Angel made

This announcement,

” All bow down and worship

The King of Kings

And Lord of Lords.”

 

Immediately he said this,

Every being in that congregation

Fell on their knees, bowed and worshipped,

Except me.

 

So sad – I was the only one

Who was standing.

I was not only standing,

I had my head turned away and tilted to a funny proud angle

With an ugly snear plastered all over my face.

 

I was looking at everyone with scorn

And wondering what they were doing.

I was perplexed and confused

Not understanding why they were

All bowing, kneeling and worshipping

Before Christ – I was so confused.

 

Then I found my self on my bed and

He said to me,

‘Don’t despise me, don’t despise me, worship me.”

I was greatly dumbfounded and shocked,

Wow!

 

I was so surprised at that revelation.

It was certainly a “rude awakening” and an unpleasant discovery.

However, it was the beginning of the renewal of my mind.

 

My false bubble burst, and

I realized then

That I did not really love Christ

But the Church I was born into

And it’s doctrines.

 

I honestly, honestly,

Thought I loved Christ

But the Lord Himself

Just showed me that

I despised Him.

 

He did not say, “don’t hate me.”

He said, “don’t despise me.”

 

I loved the doctrines

And the religion

But I was hostile and

Not submissive

To the word of God.

 

Sometime later

The Lord spoke to me and said,

“How can you love someone you don’t understand.”

 

I have always had the habit of telling Him

I love Him and how much I love Him

But He challenged that love

And led me to love Him the right way,

Through the word of God

And not through the doctrines of men.

 

To worship Him means

To exalt and love the word of God in humility,

Trust, faith and surrender.

 

He made me realize

That I could only love Him by understanding Him,

And the only way to understand Him

Is through His word.

 

He revealed to me that

To understand is to see someone spiritually

And to see someone spiritually is to love that person.

Love comes from spiritual sight and love and understanding

Go hand in hand.

 

In our relationship with Him,

We cannot love Him

Without spiritual sight or understanding

And this comes only

Through the word of God.

 

Can we really love Christ

And despise the word of God?

 

The truth is if you hate the word of God

You hate Christ.

Anti Christ means anti word of God.

The Christ that you think you love,

While vehemently rejecting the word of God,

Is a mirage, a fantasy and a delusion.

It is a false Christ, manufactured

And made up by the doctrines of men

To worship and glorify self, man

And mans depravity.

 

Any Christ that leads us to

Reject, contradict and despise the word of God,

Is an anti Christ.

 

I was wallowing deep in the mud,

With a false Christ,

However He woke me up

And led me to the real Christ,

Who is the word of God.

I definitely appreciate my “rude awakening.”

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The Tumble

Climbing up an annoying hill

On my way

From the grocery store

At plumstead, Greenwich

With heavy loads on both hands

I became angry

Because my husband had lost his job

And the fury rolled in

Bit by bit

Piling up into a heap

On my weary, discouraged mind

My frozen, clammy hands were aching

And I was so tired

And sleepy from exhaustion

A tear slipped down to my yellow scarf

Wrapped around my neck

To protect me from the freezing cold

“Mummy what’s wrong,”

My head swung towards my

Four year old daughter

Lily

“Nothing princess,

Mummy is just tired.”

As I said the word tired

I lost my balance on

The slippery slope

And found myself rolling down the hill

And I heard a piecing cry

“Mummy!”

The heart wrenching cry broke my heart

And it caused me more pain

Than the physical pain

Tearing and searing at me

From various angles

Like a wicked destructive storm

That ravages without mercy

I tried to get up

But I was in pain

As a nurse,

I knew I had injured my ankle

And knee

A while later

As the ambulance drove

Me away

And I watched my princess crying

And sobbing

I realized that

I had been ungrateful

I had so many things to

Be grateful about

But I had ignored them

So many blessings

But I had chosen to be ungrateful

And I counted my loss

And Peter’s loss

My husband Peter is amazing and loving

My job very refreshing

And rewarding

My daughter, a delight

And an Angel

My health was perfect

But I had forgotten

And counted my loss

“Gratitude is a choice Lucy,”

I said to myself

‘Never forget that.”

I was in pain

But somehow

I found the courage

To sing praises to the Lord

And a great peace like never before

Flooded my soul

Even in the midst of trial

And pain.

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Pretty Boy

You stalk me

You freak me out

You are my fear

And dread

Everywhere I go

I see you hidden at the corner

Ruffling your wild hair,

Staring at me

With your pale blue eyes

That always haunt me

And I wonder why

Why pretty boy, why

You have your whole life ahead of you

What happened to you

That made you this way

I see your eyes

I see your pain

And I know that you are lost

Tormented and helpless

When I close my eyes

I only see your haunted eyes

Haunting me, tormenting me

Refusing to let go

Everyday I pray for you

To find peace

However I need my own peace

So badly

And one thing I’m sure of is this

I will definitely

Turn you in

This night

Just One Lie

 

Sitting on my rocking chair

Lost in deep thoughts

Regretting my past

Discouraged about my future

I remembered Daniel

My childhood best friend

Whom I had hurt badly

Because

I had always assumed

He was mine

Even though we were never

A couple

He married the

Best lady of all

Almost perfect in all things

And I was just

Simply me

The envy

And jealousy

That possessed me

Was beyond reason

And I lied

And broke them apart

Now that I am old

Almost blind

And tired

I reflect on my

Past

And I live in

Complete remorse

And regret

I must call Daniel and apologize

For this regret

Is like a raving fire

Threatening to engulf me

Yes,

I must call Daniel

And I pray

He forgives me

Just one lie

And a terrible consequence

Today

I dedicate my lips to God

And commit my mouth

To truth

As I pray

Daniel forgives me.