I Cried

I left you

I cried

I went back to you

I cried

I have cried

For you so often

Yet

I do not have the will

To leave you

And your abuse

Lord

Please help me

My mind is breaking

My heart is weeping

And

I simply can’t

Live this crying life anymore

Message

Abusive relationships

Are toxic and dangerous

Do not endure physical

Or emotional violence

Do the right thing

And save your future

Do not be frozen

Pray and take action!

My Own Happiness

As I climbed the Hill

At Rock-berry drive

I remembered Harry

My ex husband

So happy

So loved up

With His new family

I hissed

As I heard a loud scream

And I realized that

I had fallen

Because I did not see

The white stone

By the pathway

A tear slipped out if my tired eyes

As I struggled

To rise up

From the muddy path

I picked up

A gold colored

Dry leaf

And I made a silent vow

To myself

Never to remember

Happy Harry

And focus on myself

My life, my path and my way

In order to carve out

My own happiness

I Tried To Love You But…

 

Everyday

I tried to love you

But I couldn’t

You were to me

The wrong man

That I married

It was an arranged marriage

That made me loose the man

Of my dreams
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You loved me

You were the best

You lived for me

However,

I could never forget

That you were not

My choice

I believed our marriage

Was an accident

That should never have happened

 

 

One morning in September

You woke up

And said

“You know what? I release you.”

And that was final

I was free

But an ache began

To eat me up

As I realized that

I could not live without you

I could not forget the way

You loved me

 

And I became convinced that

No man will ever

Love me

The way you did

However it was too late

Your heart had

Turned away from me

 

 

Here I am

Sad and miserable

Missing the years that

We spent together

And drowning in memories

Of our intertwined past life

That just won’t go away

 

I was such a fool

To let go of

A love so beautiful

But it is simply

Too late

 

I now know that

I loved you

I had to miss you

To realize that

The Last Time I Saw You

The last time I saw you

You could not look at me

You were angry

Traumatized and sad

Because I left you

And broke our vow

 

The last time I saw you

You had become an addict

To alcohol

You were tired and discouraged

You hated women

 

The last time I saw you

I wondered if you would ever heal

And I also became sad

Because I hurt you

By leaving

And made you loose

Confidence in love and marriage


But you must remember

That we fought everyday

In front of our children

We were both miserable

And our home became

A battle ground

And a place of mourning

Unhealthy for us

And our children

Everyday I pray

For you

The father of my children

That God will heal your heart

And mine too

Because we both need it

Divorce is painful

Divorce is sad

But sometimes

It just has to happen