Don’t Look Back At The world – The Story Of Amanda

Message about not looking at the world and living in purity as a single Christian female waiting upon the Lord for her husband {Boaz}

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Vessels Of Light

In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven. (Matthew 5_16 ESV)-2.png


In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven. (Matthew 5:16 ESV)

Men cannot see God but they can see other humans and see good works. When we reflect the attributes of God, we glorify God and inspire others to glorify God.

We are vessels of the goodness and grace of God – that is why we were born and redeemed. May we always be channels of that goodness and grace. Beloved, let your lights shine before others.

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By Grace We Win Favour

The Grace Of God

1: By grace we win favor

By God’s grace I have won the favor of the emperor, of his counselors, and of all his powerful officials; the Lord my God has given me courage, and I have been able to persuade many of the heads of the clans of Israel to return with me.” Ezra 7:28

The grand manifestation of grace was at the cross when Christ died in our place. By His death, God gave us grace and favor. God has always been a God of grace and He showed grace even in the Old Testament.

By God’s grace, Ezra won the favor of the emperor, his counselors and all his powerful officials. Amazing words from the Holy Scriptures. Grace is very powerful, vital and essential. A man without grace is a dead man – a living dead. All nature rebels against a man that is not enjoying the grace of God. Everything we get and experience in life is by the grace of God. Even what unbelievers, atheists and pagans have is by the grace of God.

The only difference is that they obtain their own favor through disobedience of worshiping idols who drink human blood in order to bless. Some do not directly worship idols as a conscious engagement, but because the foundations of the earth are full of the haunts of cruelty.

Human priests offer human blood in various symbolic forms, repeatedly, on behalf of sinners and for the sins of whole world. They offer sacrifices to sustain the world and to protect and bless even the ones who are not aware, including those who have no religion and those who constantly speak profanities against God.

They speak profanities because they are unconsciously drinking human blood and are sustained by the evil works of human priests. These are done in the secret and open places. The grand deception is that a lot of men do not know that it is human blood that sustains them. They are proud and believe that they do not need God, but unknown to them, blood and evil is sustaining them.

However their spirits know, but unfortunately the conscious mind does not know a lot of what the spirit of man knows. That is why men exhibit hatred for God and the blood of Jesus. The hatred is from their spirits that have been swallowed up by darkness and human blood.

They truly need prayers and help because they do not know what they are doing. They are in shackles controlled by the god of this world and are subjected to his will. It is the spirit of man that must repent because it is the spirit of man that enjoys evil even when the conscious mind hates evil.

And that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will. 2 Timothy 2:26

The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel that displays the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. 2 Corinthians 4:4

This the sin that God hates so much and the sin that leads unbelievers to hell no matter how good the unbeliever is. As long as he partakes of human blood consciously or unconsciously, he will go to hell. That he why the good news of deliverance from idol worship and human blood drinking is being preached so that they may accept the blood of Jesus and be saved.

You are to abstain from food sacrificed to idols, from blood, from the meat of strangled animals and from sexual immorality. You will do well to avoid these things. Farewell. Acts 15:29

Men offer sacrifice for reparation and cleansing to avert and appease divine judgement. Satan, the destroyer and avenger is the one who carries out divine judgement and vengeance, so they bribe him with sacrifices and claim they are sacrificing to God. God does not have that type of time and hates bribes. He does not engage in trade by batter.

God has clearly said He does not want and is not pleased with burnt offerings and sacrifices to take away sin and would rather have obedience. We must obey and subject ourselves to the gospel and good news -the blood of Jesus has set us free, period. No more sacrifices and all sacrifices must stop.

So when these have been forgiven, an offering to take away sins is no longer needed. Hebrews 10:18

You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it; you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings. Psalm 51:16

What makes you think I want all your sacrifices?” says the LORD. “I am sick of your burnt offerings of rams and the fat of fattened cattle. I get no pleasure from the blood of bulls and lambs and goats. Isiah 1:11

Sacrifices and offerings you have not desired,

but a body have you prepared for me;

in burnt offerings and sin offerings

you have taken no pleasure.

Then I said, ‘Behold, I have come to do your will, O God,

as it is written of me in the scroll of the book. ’” (Hebrews 10:5 – 10:7 ESV)

God has consistently said he does not want sacrifices, yet stubborn humans persist in offering sacrifice to “God”. By doing this they offer sacrifice to death and disobedience and claim it is God that they are offering the sacrifice to. God does not need anything from man including human blood to bless man because He is the author and giver of life and blood but Satan and death need human blood from man to bless man. Let those who want to hear, hear the truth.

No, but the sacrifices of pagans are offered to demons, not to God, and I do not want you to be participants with demons. 1 Corinthians 10:20

So then, about eating the food offered to idols: we know that an idol stands for something that does not really exist; we know that there is only the one God. 5 Even if there are so-called “gods,” whether in heaven or on earth, and even though there are many of these “gods” and “lords,” 6 yet there is for us only one God, the Father, who is the Creator of all things and for whom we live; and there is only one Lord, Jesus Christ, through whom all things were created and through whom we live. 1 Corinthians 8:4-6

Blood sacrifice is an ancient practice as old as mankind itself but God hates it. God hates sacrifice because to sacrifice is to destroy. Sacrifice is synonymous to death. They prefer sacrifice to obedience. They reject and refuse the gospel and would rather offer sacrifice to demons than embrace the blood of Jesus and the gospel or good news. God is the only law giver and judge and He alone can save and destroy. Satan can not judge so all power belongs to God.

God is the only lawgiver and judge. He alone can save and destroy. James 4:12

And do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather fear him who can destroy both soul and body in hell. Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father (Matthew 10:28 – 10:29 ESV)

All man needs is to realize that all power belongs to God and nothing can happen on earth without God’s permission. This realization should lead to worship and obedience towards God and rejection of Satan worship.

Worship of death and Satan is very fraudulent and destructive but majority of mankind glory in it because it is easy and encourages self dependence, man dependence and man worship. In Satan and man worship, death and human priests are worshiped, glorified and exalted. Human priests become father and Lord and they control demons and shed human blood in order to bless their worshippers and the beneficiaries of their fraud and destruction.

People offer sacrifice because they believe they have not been forgiven or cannot be forgiven and suffer from guilty conscience but in Christ, the natural guilty conscience is washed away.

If the people worshiping God had really been purified from their sins, they would not feel guilty of sin any more, and all sacrifices would stop. Hebrews 10:2

So let us come near to God with a sincere heart and a sure faith, with hearts that have been purified from a guilty conscience and with bodies washed with clean water. Hebrews 10:22

Beware of any place of worship that offers sacrifice in any form whatsoever, even if the sacrifice looks harmless. Even if that sacrifice is called Jesus Christ, do not be deceived. Christ is King and Lord of all and cannot be sacrificed or offered over and over again. He is on His throne.

Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, as clear as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb. Revelation 22:1

Christ is the source of life and grace and man can not offer life and grace to God. That is a totally flawed logic and an abomination. Catholics and other sacrificers beware!

Everyone who is not enjoying the blood, Spirit, glory and life of Jesus therefore enjoys and partakes of human blood, life, glory and spirit buried in different alters, regardless of conscious knowledge.

These are hidden sins. They do not need to be aware that they are partaking of blood but the spiritual reality is that they are. God gives all blessings and grace to humans but permits them to get it by their own disobedient ways. They prefer it that way because idol worship is an easy way to blessings, while the way of Christ is a hard narrow way. Anyone who rejects the blood of Jesus is indirectly accepting human blood as an alternative. It is only human blood that takes away sins, that is why Jesus had to come as human to be sacrificed.

The blood of animals – goats and bulls cannot take away sins. It is symbolical of human blood. The animal sacrifices in the Old Testament by the Israelites was symbolical of the sacrifice of Jesus on the cross and human.

This is a symbol which points to the present time. It means that the offerings and animal sacrifices presented to God cannot make the worshiper’s heart perfect. Hebrews 9:9

All other sacrifices by non Israelites symbolized human blood that is why God constantly commanded the Israelites to kill their priests. Men use human blood to avert temporal physical punishments due to sin but the eternal punishments and consequences for sins remain. Human blood leads to hell and locks the door of heaven to false worshippers.

Indeed, according to the Law almost everything is purified by blood, and sins are forgiven only if blood is poured out. Hebrews 9:22 Good News Translation

Indeed, under the law almost everything is purified with blood, and without the shedding of blood there is no forgiveness of sins (Hebrews 9:22 ESV)

It is impossible for the blood of bulls and goats to take away sins. Hebrews 10:4

It is only God that gives grace and true favor comes by His grace. When God’s grace is poured on you, powerful important people will love you and bless you. You will find favor in their eyes. We must keep in mind that Ezra had a thorough knowledge of the law. He was devoted to the law and pleased God greatly.

Ezra was a scholar with a thorough knowledge of the Law which the Lord, the God of Israel, had given to Moses. Because Ezra had the blessing of the Lord his God, the emperor gave him everything he asked for. Ezra 7:6-7

As we walk in God and follow Him in complete obedience to His ways, plan and will, He will make very important and powerful people find favor in us. Your boss will be pleased with you instead of being constantly irritated with you. By God’s grace, we will win the favor of great Kings and also rule as spiritual kings on earth.

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All My Life

All my life

I crawled.

Where others stood I sat

Where others flew

I was paralysed.


When others danced and rejoiced,

I hid and cried.

Favour was so far

And mercy was but a mirage,

As I stumbled

And groped in the dark,

Panting and longing for mercy.


One day,

I looked at the face of Jesus

And all I saw was mercy and compassion

And hope shot up in me

“Surely, I have hope,”

I said to myself.


Then I cried out for mercy

And Jesus appeared.

He said to me,

“I am full of love and mercy


Mercy will be your companion

And follow you all the days of your life,

For the King of glory says,

My mercy will never again depart from you

Because you called my name – Mercy!”


May we always recognise

That Jesus is the mercy of God

And always call on

His Holy name.

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When You See Me Cry

When you see me cry

What goes through

Your mind?

Do you think I am weak

Pathetic and and unattractive?



When you see me cry

What goes through your mind?

Joy, power, glee

Tell me

What goes through your mind?


I know you love to

See me cry

And I have cried for you and

In front of you

Several times


I cried because I am human

I cried because

That was the only way

I could release my hurt, pain

And frustration

At your brutality and abuse



I no longer care

About what goes through

Your mind when I cry



I am taking back my dignity

And respect

I will no longer cry

To give you

Sadistic joy


I will leave your presence

And your life

And believe me

I will never cry for you again,


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When I Was A Child

When I was a child

I used to believe

In the goodness

Of humanity

And man.



I thought everyone

Was like me

Loving good

And hating evil

With a passion.


Then, along the way

as I grew up

I noticed that man was perverted – even kids

As they ganged up

And bullied the innocent.

I noticed that some kids

Derived pleasure in

Hurting their peers.


I used to believe

In purity

Until I saw wickedness

All around me

And men exploited each other

For ungodly gains

And pleasure.

They tore each other apart

Feeding on one another

Like voracious animals.

Then one hot afternoon

In July, I stared into the

Blazing sun and I said to myself


‘Some men are wild animals in

Human skin?’


Then I decided to transform

Into the greatest beast of all

To destroy all my attackers

And erase the wicked.


Then I heard a soft gentle voice

Speak softly into my soul

‘Don’t do it my child,

You were created good

And pure,

And your good heart

Has been a snare to you.

However, you must remain

Pure and good

Leave judgement and revenge to me


I am the destroyer

Of the wicked.’


Then I resolved firmly within me

To keep believing in goodness

And purity

And never give up

Because there is

A God in Heaven

Who is the judge

Of all mankind.

He is also a rewarder

Of those who diligently seek Him.

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Heaven’s Gate

A gentle pat on my left leg

And I wake up

To behold a mighty Angel

In my room.

He smiled,

And I smiled back.



Immediately I smiled back

I found myself at

Heavens gate

As I walk though the city,

I loose every memory of pain,

Heartbreak and disappointment.


The Lord Himself walks

Towards me,

In a golden garment,

Studded with gemstones,

Shining brighter than the sun.

Resplendent, radiant and overwhelming

In power and beauty,

He kisses my right cheek,

And says,

‘I love you.’

And I think to myself,

‘How wonderful the Lord is,

That He expresses love very easily

Without shyness or childishness.


His comfort in love

And words of love

Made Him more attractive

And alluring

As I gaze at Him – My big Daddy,

With beautiful brown, tear filled eyes.


Then I remember my own husband

Who can never say

‘I love you’

But would show me in a million

Ways how much he loves me.

I always wanted to hear

Those precious healing words

But my husband denied me that pleasure

Relief and comfort

Of the mind.


Then I recall that the Holy Spirit

Said to me in the past,

‘A blessed woman is a woman

Who hears I love you everyday.’

He also taught me the importance

Of expressing love

As He constantly says to me,

‘Express your love for me.’


Here I am,

Hand in hand

With my King

Walking on golden streets

Surrounded by His glory

Hearing the one word

I was always denied.


Tears drop down my eyes

As the Lord opens up His

Healing arms

And I rush in

Overwhelmed by a million

Positive emotions and love, joy, peace, consolation and comfort.


I hugged Him never to let go

Muttering ceaselessly into His chest

Intoxicated by His fragrance,

Which smelt like nothing on earth.


‘I love you Lord, I love you Lord,

More than everyone,

And anything

On earth, I will show you my love

By constant obedience and service.

Your will is my will, your pleasure is my pleasure.’


I kept saying this, like a glorious litany rushing

Like golden cascades of love

Out of my quivering lips.

This pleased the Lord greatly.


He holds my face in His hands

Wipes away my tears

Gazing deeply into my adoring tender eyes,

‘I love you my child,

You are a princess,

Don’t ever forget that.’


Then I find myself

Back in my room

Wishing He never let go.

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That One Dance

We were many

Dressed in royal garments

Studded with gemstones

Waiting for the bridegroom


We were all longing

To dance with Him

As we all searched

The great ballroom

In Heaven

For the great Master


Then He appeared

And we all fell at His feet

In adoration and worship

My face was facedown

And my mouth kissed the floor

And it seemed like my nose

Was stuck to the floor


Then I saw the golden sandals

Beside me

And realized He was

Standing beside me


I looked up

And He stretched out

His right hand to me

Smiling gently

With love


His blue eyes sparkled

And twinkled

And rays of light

Emanated from them

Enveloping me


I gave Him

My right hand and

He pulled me up

Into His arms

His gaze fixed firmly

On my face


I looked downwards

With great shyness

Because I felt swallowed up

By His mesmerising deep gaze


I hid my face on

His shoulder

And we danced


As we danced

He bent towards my face

And whispered into my ear,

“Those who wait upon me

And seek my face

Will dance with me

Eat with me

And experience my glory.

They will touch me

Taste me

Feel me

Eat me

And see my face,

As I come upon them.

To dance with me means

Intimate fellowship

And baptism of

My Holy Spirit and fire

It means drinking and tasting

My Spirit

And basking in my glory and fire

Tell my children that

I want to dance with them.”


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Gold In My Belly – Chapter 2


I can remember that day so well

Very long ago

It was summer

And I had fallen asleep

On my garden sofa

In my back garden

The blaring sound

of siren woke me up

And I though to myself,

“Police! Police!”

As I jumped up from my sleep

Startled and dazed

Wondering if something bad

Was happening on my street

Then the sound

Gently receded and retreated

Slowly fading away

And there was sudden calm

The soft evening breeze

Caressed my cheek

And I felt more alive

Than ever

I stretched myself on the sofa

And immediately I put my head on the sofa

I fell into a trance

I looked and all I could see

Was a great sea

Within a hundred yards

From where I was

I saw a crowd of lovely ladies

The crowd was huge, so huge

Over a million

All waking on the sea

And emerging from the sea

With roses, tiara’s and crowns

“We must crown you.” They all echoed

Bowing as they said it.

“No I said, get away from me.”

The female leader of the group

Tall and perfect in beauty

Stepped into my garden and a regal looking man

Of authority accompanied her – he was obviously a prince.

“You are making a great mistake,

We won’t leave you alone

Until you yield.

We want you

Because you are a great asset

Your blood is gold and pure

And a delight to us

Come to us.”

She turned to the prince standing beside her.

“This is Del,

The prince of Nada Kingdom.” The prince was very

Striking and extremely handsome. The robe he had on dazzled with

Gems and unearthly beauty.

I starred at the prince in dismay

Wondering why they were disturbing my evening rest

I shook my head as I carefully examined him.

“Handsome but not my type.”

I muttered under my breath


The prince asked, obviously insulted and not pleased

“Oh you heard me? Well, I was talking to myself.”

“You dare to defy me me?”

My laugh was shrill and out of this world.

“Why not? I shrugged as I got up from the sofa, stepped forward

And looked straight into his eyes, not scared or afraid

of his power. I looked into His eyes with scorn.

Shafts of fire were beginning to proceed out of His eyes.

“What a mess, I am not gonna waste my time with you,

“Disappear or fire will swallow you.”

The prince moved closer to me and a golden cloud appeared and encircled me.

Prince Del was breathtaking in beauty

He was powerful

However I despised him

He was nothing compared

The Prince of princes that was around me.

At the sight of the golden cloud,

Prince Del instantly transformed into a beast, screened in terror

and evaporated into the air as thick smelly green mist filled the air.

I opened my eyes and realized I was very hungry. I went into my house and the doorbell

was ringing. There was smoke everywhere and the fire alarm shrilled into my perplexed bones.

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