All I Know
When you left me for Cynthia
I said to my self
“I am finished!”
I cried
And I was sad
Then I said to myself,
‘Don’t be silly
Divorce is not the end of the world
You have a lot to thank God for.’
I wanted to forget Ashley
But I could not
Because
Memories are hard to abolish
And the memories
Just kept bubbling up
Into my consciousness
I knew I had to keep busy
And develop another passion
Then I picked up my Laptop
And began to write
I hit the keyboard really hard
And typed like I was expecting an award
Or a much cherished price
As I typed I would sometimes
Remember Ashley,
Wipe away the tears and continue
I never gave up
I was a recluse
For one year
Because I was determined
To be the best
That I could be
I made sure that I put in my best
After one year
The book was published
And it was a bestseller
Subsequently
The book was turned
Into a movie
Ashley saw me on TV
And called me
He wanted me back
And promised never to betray my love
Ever again
However I said no,
“No, Ashley
I don’t want you back
I love writing
I have a new passion.”
And hopefully one day
A new man
I don’t really care
All I know is that I am happy
And I am determined to be happy
And no one can take away my joy
One thing I know is this
I make decisions
Over my own life
And I am the only one
Who can give permission to others
To mess up my life
And I say no to betrayal and sadness
