The Tumble

Climbing up an annoying hill

On my way

From the grocery store

At plumstead, Greenwich

With heavy loads on both hands

I became angry

Because my husband had lost his job

And the fury rolled in

Bit by bit

Piling up into a heap

On my weary, discouraged mind

My frozen, clammy hands were aching

And I was so tired

And sleepy from exhaustion

A tear slipped down to my yellow scarf

Wrapped around my neck

To protect me from the freezing cold

“Mummy what’s wrong,”

My head swung towards my

Four year old daughter

Lily

“Nothing princess,

Mummy is just tired.”

As I said the word tired

I lost my balance on

The slippery slope

And found myself rolling down the hill

And I heard a piecing cry

“Mummy!”

The heart wrenching cry broke my heart

And it caused me more pain

Than the physical pain

Tearing and searing at me

From various angles

Like a wicked destructive storm

That ravages without mercy

I tried to get up

But I was in pain

As a nurse,

I knew I had injured my ankle

And knee

A while later

As the ambulance drove

Me away

And I watched my princess crying

And sobbing

I realized that

I had been ungrateful

I had so many things to

Be grateful about

But I had ignored them

So many blessings

But I had chosen to be ungrateful

And I counted my loss

And Peter’s loss

My husband Peter is amazing and loving

My job very refreshing

And rewarding

My daughter, a delight

And an Angel

My health was perfect

But I had forgotten

And counted my loss

“Gratitude is a choice Lucy,”

I said to myself

‘Never forget that.”

I was in pain

But somehow

I found the courage

To sing praises to the Lord

And a great peace like never before

Flooded my soul

Even in the midst of trial

And pain.

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Pretty Boy

You stalk me

You freak me out

You are my fear

And dread

Everywhere I go

I see you hidden at the corner

Ruffling your wild hair,

Staring at me

With your pale blue eyes

That always haunt me

And I wonder why

Why pretty boy, why

You have your whole life ahead of you

What happened to you

That made you this way

I see your eyes

I see your pain

And I know that you are lost

Tormented and helpless

When I close my eyes

I only see your haunted eyes

Haunting me, tormenting me

Refusing to let go

Everyday I pray for you

To find peace

However I need my own peace

So badly

And one thing I’m sure of is this

I will definitely

Turn you in

This night

All I Know

When you left me for Cynthia

I said to my self

“I am finished!”

I cried

And I was sad

Then I said to myself,

‘Don’t be silly

Divorce is not the end of the world

You have a lot to thank God for.’

I wanted to forget Ashley

But I could not

Because

Memories are hard to abolish

And the memories

Just kept bubbling up

Into my consciousness

I knew I had to keep busy

And develop another passion

Then I picked up my Laptop

And began to write

I hit the keyboard really hard

And typed like I was expecting an award

Or a much cherished price

As I typed I would sometimes

Remember Ashley,

Wipe away the tears and continue

I never gave up

I was a recluse

For one year

Because I was determined

To be the best

That I could be

I made sure that I put in my best

After one year

The book was published

And it was a bestseller

Subsequently

The book was turned

Into a movie

Ashley saw me on TV

And called me

He wanted me back

And promised never to betray my love

Ever again

However I said no,

“No, Ashley

I don’t want you back

I love writing

I have a new passion.”

And hopefully one day

A new man

I don’t really care

All I know is that I am happy

And I am determined to be happy

And no one can take away my joy

One thing I know is this

I make decisions

Over my own life

And I am the only one

Who can give permission to others

To mess up my life

And I say no to betrayal and sadness

Little Girls Playing In The Moonlight

Little girls dancing, clapping and playing in the moonlight

The wriggles and squeakles

Under a huge mango tree

The quiet village is filled with innocent cries of laughter

I gaze up into the sky and my eyes are fixed on a star in wonder of creation

My heart mutters

“How glorious are you, O King of glory

You are pure and desire innocence

Cleanse our hearts and make us as innocent as doves

So that we can find joy in the little things of life

And gush out happy cries of joy

Just like the girls playing in the moonlight.”

Lover For Life

Lover for life

So pure so good

You came into my life

And changed me

Lover for life

I love you

Because you love me deeply

You can lay down your life

A million times for me

Lover for life

Your love is so powerful

So strong, so real

So divine

It makes me tremble

Lover for life

You take away my breath

And you give me breath

With your staggering presence

Lover for life

My love for you will never end

Enthrone your love in my heart

And never leave

Because

We are definitely lovers

For life

Taken

You were taken

By a vow

And a spirit

That I could not understand

Despite knowing

That we could never

Be together

I loved you

Like my own soul

I inhaled your spirit

Until obsession took over

When I realized the

Danger of obsession

I cut off

And went far away

To another land

Where I would

Never see you

However the scar

Had cut deeply

Into me

And all my dreams

Were about

Me by your graveside

Mourning the loss

Of your presence

The cords of obsession

Fought hard

To resist the resistance

I put up

As I realized that

I did not have the strength

To pull through

Because the more I fought

The more I fell apart

And became physically

Breathless

Because my heart

Refused to obey

My head and logic

I cried out to heaven

And I was saved

By the mercy of God

With one lesson

Etched deeply

On my mind

“Obsession is bad

For the soul,

Reject obsession

At its early stages

Before it sprouts

Horns and tails

And turns into

A destructive

Monster to the soul.”

My Own Happiness

As I climbed the Hill

At Rock-berry drive

I remembered Harry

My ex husband

So happy

So loved up

With His new family

I hissed

As I heard a loud scream

And I realized that

I had fallen

Because I did not see

The white stone

By the pathway

A tear slipped out if my tired eyes

As I struggled

To rise up

From the muddy path

I picked up

A gold colored

Dry leaf

And I made a silent vow

To myself

Never to remember

Happy Harry

And focus on myself

My life, my path and my way

In order to carve out

My own happiness

Lost Shadow

I followed you blindly

Like a cold, lost shadow

I thought it was loyalty

I thought it was devotion

I thought it was love

I followed you blindly

I lost my senses

And my dignity

In a relentlessly dark journey

Into the land of Obsession

I lived for you

My magnificent obsession

Until I realized

That I was your slave

Because

You had possessed

My spirit and soul

I lived for you

But not anymore

For I am free

Free to dance

Free to love

In a healthy way

Devoid of obsession

I lived for you

But now

I live for God

For myself

And others

In pure agape love

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