Don’t Despise Me

 

A long time ago

When I was still in a Church

That confesses Christ in lips

But delights in idolatry and false worship,

I had a vision.

 

 

Prior to the vision

I saw myself as one of the

Best lovers of God

Believing that my love for God

Was somehow almost unparalleled and unmatched

In its fervor and intensity.

 

I loved God quite alright

But the God I loved

Was my false idea of God,

And I did not know that.

 

I wallowed in deception

And delusion

Until I had this vision.

 

I was lying down

On my bed,

When I was suddenly transported

Into the Kingdom of God.

 

I was in a very large congregation

And the crowd was limitless.

 

A mighty Angel made

This announcement,

” All bow down and worship

The King of Kings

And Lord of Lords.”

 

Immediately he said this,

Every being in that congregation

Fell on their knees, bowed and worshipped,

Except me.

 

So sad – I was the only one

Who was standing.

I was not only standing,

I had my head turned away and tilted to a funny proud angle

With an ugly snear plastered all over my face.

 

I was looking at everyone with scorn

And wondering what they were doing.

I was perplexed and confused

Not understanding why they were

All bowing, kneeling and worshipping

Before Christ – I was so confused.

 

Then I found my self on my bed and

He said to me,

‘Don’t despise me, don’t despise me, worship me.”

I was greatly dumbfounded and shocked,

Wow!

 

I was so surprised at that revelation.

It was certainly a “rude awakening” and an unpleasant discovery.

However, it was the beginning of the renewal of my mind.

 

My false bubble burst, and

I realized then

That I did not really love Christ

But the Church I was born into

And it’s doctrines.

 

I honestly, honestly,

Thought I loved Christ

But the Lord Himself

Just showed me that

I despised Him.

 

He did not say, “don’t hate me.”

He said, “don’t despise me.”

 

I loved the doctrines

And the religion

But I was hostile and

Not submissive

To the word of God.

 

Sometime later

The Lord spoke to me and said,

“How can you love someone you don’t understand.”

 

I have always had the habit of telling Him

I love Him and how much I love Him

But He challenged that love

And led me to love Him the right way,

Through the word of God

And not through the doctrines of men.

 

To worship Him means

To exalt and love the word of God in humility,

Trust, faith and surrender.

 

He made me realize

That I could only love Him by understanding Him,

And the only way to understand Him

Is through His word.

 

He revealed to me that

To understand is to see someone spiritually

And to see someone spiritually is to love that person.

Love comes from spiritual sight and love and understanding

Go hand in hand.

 

In our relationship with Him,

We cannot love Him

Without spiritual sight or understanding

And this comes only

Through the word of God.

 

Can we really love Christ

And despise the word of God?

 

The truth is if you hate the word of God

You hate Christ.

Anti Christ means anti word of God.

The Christ that you think you love,

While vehemently rejecting the word of God,

Is a mirage, a fantasy and a delusion.

It is a false Christ, manufactured

And made up by the doctrines of men

To worship and glorify self, man

And mans depravity.

 

Any Christ that leads us to

Reject, contradict and despise the word of God,

Is an anti Christ.

 

I was wallowing deep in the mud,

With a false Christ,

However He woke me up

And led me to the real Christ,

Who is the word of God.

I definitely appreciate my “rude awakening.”

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When I Was A Child

When I was a child

I used to believe

In the goodness

Of humanity

And man.

 

 

I thought everyone

Was like me

Loving good

And hating evil

With a passion.

 

Then, along the way

as I grew up

I noticed that man was perverted – even kids

As they ganged up

And bullied the innocent.

I noticed that some kids

Derived pleasure in

Hurting their peers.

 

I used to believe

In purity

Until I saw wickedness

All around me

And men exploited each other

For ungodly gains

And pleasure.

They tore each other apart

Feeding on one another

Like voracious animals.

Then one hot afternoon

In July, I stared into the

Blazing sun and I said to myself

Surely,

‘Some men are wild animals in

Human skin?’

 

Then I decided to transform

Into the greatest beast of all

To destroy all my attackers

And erase the wicked.

 

Then I heard a soft gentle voice

Speak softly into my soul

‘Don’t do it my child,

You were created good

And pure,

And your good heart

Has been a snare to you.

However, you must remain

Pure and good

Leave judgement and revenge to me

Because,

I am the destroyer

Of the wicked.’

 

Then I resolved firmly within me

To keep believing in goodness

And purity

And never give up

Because there is

A God in Heaven

Who is the judge

Of all mankind.

He is also a rewarder

Of those who diligently seek Him.

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Your Response To Trials

Trials are a part

Of everyday life.

They come and go

Leaving some wrecked

And damaged.

 

While some people

Respond positively

To trials

By clinging more to

God and depending

On Him,

Some are left devastated

And completely defeated.

 

Some even go into despair,

Loosing hope and faith

In God and humanity.

 

Trials only expose

How vulnerable

We are as humans,

Because no one

Is exempted from trials

It is only wise

For us to determine

That trials will

Not make us bitter.

 

Rather, we decide

That we will develop

Positive traits even

In the midst of

The trials.

 

Trials should make

Us develop patience

Perseverance, endurance

Fortitude, hope, faith

Joy, kindness courage.

 

Trials should make us

Become more hardworking

And energetic, giving us

That I can do attitude

That will make us more

Than conquerors.

 

Trials should

Ultimately make us

Victorious in Christ,

If our response is positive

And right.

We Will Run

We will run

We will fight

We will endure

Because

The greater one

Lives in us.

 

He lives in us

To guide us

To protect us

To teach us.

 

In our Christian race,

He is constantly

Enabling us

And empowering

Us to greater heights.

 

When we run

We do not

Lose hope

Or get weary

Because the king of glory

Is with us and within us.

Found In You

Hold Me Close

Under the shadow

Of your wings

Until the raging storm is over

 

Hold me close

When the sun bites

And the moon stings

As they collude

And whisper

In silent mutiny

To tear me apart

 

Hold me close

Until I feel your very heartbeat

And breath

In the midst of the storm

And after the storm

 

When the storm is over

You will leave the imprint

And mark of your arms – your life giving presence

All around me

 

Then your presence will

Overwhelm and overshadow me

It will erase the memory of the storm

That brought me into you

 

Hold me close

Until I am lost

And found in you