Don’t Despise Me
A long time ago
When I was still in a Church
That confesses Christ in lips
But delights in idolatry and false worship,
I had a vision.
Prior to the vision
I saw myself as one of the
Best lovers of God
Believing that my love for God
Was somehow almost unparalleled and unmatched
In its fervor and intensity.
I loved God quite alright
But the God I loved
Was my false idea of God,
And I did not know that.
I wallowed in deception
Until I had this vision.
I was lying down
On my bed,
When I was suddenly transported
Into the Kingdom of God.
I was in a very large congregation
And the crowd was limitless.
A mighty Angel made
” All bow down and worship
The King of Kings
And Lord of Lords.”
Immediately he said this,
Every being in that congregation
Fell on their knees, bowed and worshipped,
So sad – I was the only one
Who was standing.
I was not only standing,
I had my head turned away and tilted to a funny proud angle
With an ugly snear plastered all over my face.
I was looking at everyone with scorn
And wondering what they were doing.
I was perplexed and confused
Not understanding why they were
All bowing, kneeling and worshipping
Before Christ – I was so confused.
Then I found my self on my bed and
He said to me,
‘Don’t despise me, don’t despise me, worship me.”
I was greatly dumbfounded and shocked,
I was so surprised at that revelation.
It was certainly a “rude awakening” and an unpleasant discovery.
However, it was the beginning of the renewal of my mind.
My false bubble burst, and
I realized then
That I did not really love Christ
But the Church I was born into
And it’s doctrines.
I honestly, honestly,
Thought I loved Christ
But the Lord Himself
Just showed me that
I despised Him.
He did not say, “don’t hate me.”
He said, “don’t despise me.”
I loved the doctrines
And the religion
But I was hostile and
To the word of God.
The Lord spoke to me and said,
“How can you love someone you don’t understand.”
I have always had the habit of telling Him
I love Him and how much I love Him
But He challenged that love
And led me to love Him the right way,
Through the word of God
And not through the doctrines of men.
To worship Him means
To exalt and love the word of God in humility,
Trust, faith and surrender.
He made me realize
That I could only love Him by understanding Him,
And the only way to understand Him
Is through His word.
He revealed to me that
To understand is to see someone spiritually
And to see someone spiritually is to love that person.
Love comes from spiritual sight and love and understanding
Go hand in hand.
In our relationship with Him,
We cannot love Him
Without spiritual sight or understanding
And this comes only
Through the word of God.
Can we really love Christ
And despise the word of God?
The truth is if you hate the word of God
You hate Christ.
Anti Christ means anti word of God.
The Christ that you think you love,
While vehemently rejecting the word of God,
Is a mirage, a fantasy and a delusion.
It is a false Christ, manufactured
And made up by the doctrines of men
To worship and glorify self, man
And mans depravity.
Any Christ that leads us to
Reject, contradict and despise the word of God,
Is an anti Christ.
I was wallowing deep in the mud,
With a false Christ,
However He woke me up
And led me to the real Christ,
Who is the word of God.
I definitely appreciate my “rude awakening.”