Don’t Despise Me


A long time ago

When I was still in a Church

That confesses Christ in lips

But delights in idolatry and false worship,

I had a vision.



Prior to the vision

I saw myself as one of the

Best lovers of God

Believing that my love for God

Was somehow almost unparalleled and unmatched

In its fervor and intensity.


I loved God quite alright

But the God I loved

Was my false idea of God,

And I did not know that.


I wallowed in deception

And delusion

Until I had this vision.


I was lying down

On my bed,

When I was suddenly transported

Into the Kingdom of God.


I was in a very large congregation

And the crowd was limitless.


A mighty Angel made

This announcement,

” All bow down and worship

The King of Kings

And Lord of Lords.”


Immediately he said this,

Every being in that congregation

Fell on their knees, bowed and worshipped,

Except me.


So sad – I was the only one

Who was standing.

I was not only standing,

I had my head turned away and tilted to a funny proud angle

With an ugly snear plastered all over my face.


I was looking at everyone with scorn

And wondering what they were doing.

I was perplexed and confused

Not understanding why they were

All bowing, kneeling and worshipping

Before Christ – I was so confused.


Then I found my self on my bed and

He said to me,

‘Don’t despise me, don’t despise me, worship me.”

I was greatly dumbfounded and shocked,



I was so surprised at that revelation.

It was certainly a “rude awakening” and an unpleasant discovery.

However, it was the beginning of the renewal of my mind.


My false bubble burst, and

I realized then

That I did not really love Christ

But the Church I was born into

And it’s doctrines.


I honestly, honestly,

Thought I loved Christ

But the Lord Himself

Just showed me that

I despised Him.


He did not say, “don’t hate me.”

He said, “don’t despise me.”


I loved the doctrines

And the religion

But I was hostile and

Not submissive

To the word of God.


Sometime later

The Lord spoke to me and said,

“How can you love someone you don’t understand.”


I have always had the habit of telling Him

I love Him and how much I love Him

But He challenged that love

And led me to love Him the right way,

Through the word of God

And not through the doctrines of men.


To worship Him means

To exalt and love the word of God in humility,

Trust, faith and surrender.


He made me realize

That I could only love Him by understanding Him,

And the only way to understand Him

Is through His word.


He revealed to me that

To understand is to see someone spiritually

And to see someone spiritually is to love that person.

Love comes from spiritual sight and love and understanding

Go hand in hand.


In our relationship with Him,

We cannot love Him

Without spiritual sight or understanding

And this comes only

Through the word of God.


Can we really love Christ

And despise the word of God?


The truth is if you hate the word of God

You hate Christ.

Anti Christ means anti word of God.

The Christ that you think you love,

While vehemently rejecting the word of God,

Is a mirage, a fantasy and a delusion.

It is a false Christ, manufactured

And made up by the doctrines of men

To worship and glorify self, man

And mans depravity.


Any Christ that leads us to

Reject, contradict and despise the word of God,

Is an anti Christ.


I was wallowing deep in the mud,

With a false Christ,

However He woke me up

And led me to the real Christ,

Who is the word of God.

I definitely appreciate my “rude awakening.”



  1. bond0servant says:

    We should have no room in our lives but God and Him alone !!

  2. “And not through the doctrines of men.” Man is fallible, God’s word is not. Great post Laura, as always 🙂

  3. carlos SP says:

    Anti-Christ means in the place of Christ.
    Who sits on the throne of Christ and wants to be worshiped in the place of Christ; and says has authority to change the times and the Law, the Lord’s day, the Sabbath, for Sunday.
    The man of sin that would come, and behold, he is already in the world.

    • laurabon says:

      Thank you so much for your response.Blessings❤️😊🙏. I really love the insight.
      Anti Christ is also a spirit that opposes the word of God. There are many anti Christ’s in the world already. They hate and despise the true word of God with a passion. They hate Christ and do not accept correction. The man of sin is the personification of all the anti Christ Spirits and hatred for Christ and His word.

  4. BelleUnruh says:

    Thank you for sharing how God has led you. He knew you were sincere and could handle the rebuke. Our Father in heaven reproves us as a parent with a child. The Lord has rebuked me also. I have also had a wrong picture of God at times.

    • laurabon says:

      Thank you so much for the kind and thoughtful response. Yes, “our father reproves us as a percent with a child.” Thank you so much for the wise words, I fell greatly encouraged ❤️😊🙏

  5. mistimaan says:

    Well quoted

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